Ever since graduation my spiritual life has, unfortunately, taken a strange hit. There have been some great moments of growth, but for the most part it’s been one big uphill battle and I haven’t had the will necessary to fight back (my fault entirely). I’ve had a bad attitude quite a bit, and I just haven’t been willing to put in the time and commitment that God clearly deserves. With quite a bit of wrestling, a little bit of resistance, and a true desire to learn the art of surrender, I’m starting to see what I’ve been doing to myself for quite a while.
So what does that have to do with anything?
The book calls the Israelites – a new generation – to remember who God is and what what He did for the generation before them. The old generation wandered for 40 years and died. He brought them out of Egypt, but they never got to fully experiences what it was that He had intended for them – the Promised Land – because of their stubbornness, arrogance, and their wrongful desire to control their own lives and do things their own way.
Uh oh. Yeah, you see where this is going.
“The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place. In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and show you the way you should go. When the LORD heard what you said, he was angry and solemnly swore: ‘Not a man of this evil generation shall see the good land I swore to give your forefathers, except Caleb son of Jephunneh. He will see it, and I will give him and his descendants the land he set his feet on, because he followed the LORD wholeheartedly.'” -Deuteronomy 1:31-36
God has brought us up out of Egypt. We’ve been rescued from the slavery the Egyptians had imposed on us. Don’t forget that! Because in our sensationalist American Christianity, we’ve taught that no matter what God is going to turn your situation into something peachy because darnit, you’ve accepted him!
Pardon me, but… THEY WANDERED FOR FORTY YEARS, KIDS. They still didn’t get it when they died! What about that makes you think that just because you accept Jesus once that he’ll magically turn your self-inflicted, sinful situation into diamonds? He will – but you have to surrender. That’s the missing piece. These people didn’t surrender, and God let them feel the consequences. Did he intend for them to enter the Promised Land? Absolutely. But did he recognize that there had to be consequences for their decision to do their own thing? Yes.
Here I’ve been wandering around in a desert (albeit, not for 40 years), doing my own thing, taking things into my own hands, and I’ve been wondering why things aren’t going just swimmingly. I totally believe God’s pursuing my heart and your heart, but we kid ourselves if we think our situations – if we think we – will actually change unless we surrender it all over to God. I don’t buy into this idea that God is going to make your life everything you ever wanted while you still do everything the same way. Abraham had to uproot himself. Moses had to give up his life in Midian to go help rescue God’s chosen. Esther had to put her life on the line. Jesus had to die. All of these people had something in common: They surrendered. Still not convinced? Go read Jonah’s story. You aren’t going to make it into the Promised Land by doing things the same way every day. It just doesn’t happen like that.
You’ve been brought out of Egypt. But now the sand is in your desert (y’know, ball in your court kinda thing?). Are you going to wander for 40 years only to die and never see the Promised Land because of your disobedience, or are you going to choose to do things God’s way and be led to something greater than you could imagine, even if it wasn’t what you had in mind?
Pray. Seek. Do.